»Most of the time it’s like this big black cloud covering everything, like we see the world, but we don’t really see the world, you know? We are all just stumbling around, directionless, no sense of meaning, no sense of purpose. I know that might sound super depressing, but honestly, I think it’s a good thing, because it makes us appreciate the other times – those brief transcendant moments when the lights flicker on, the black cloud parts and you see the world for what it really is. And suddenly there is meaning, suddenly there is purpose. If you’re lucky, you will experience this once in your lifetime. For me it happened twice. The first was the day I met Josh, and the second the day I killed him.«